My baby nephew or niece who we never got to meet yet.
My sister in law was due on the 6th November but was told yesterday when they went over for a check up that the baby had died.
I just want to say you were loved and will be missed and will be forever in our hearts and thoughts.
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Good Morning and hope everyone had a good weekend.
Thursday night I stayed in my parents house but barely slept as I was so worried about the tests Friday morning.
Got up at 7am, left the house just after 8 and arrived at the hospital just before 8.45, my appointment was for 9.15.
I went in, gave my name, had to fill out a form and was sitting down 2 minutes when there were about 5 of us called, we went and got into the gowns and had to wait for the doctor to see us, when she examined me she told me that I have fibrotic cysts on both my boobs, they’re nothing serious and though will never go away completely aren’t dangerous in anyway. She sent me for an ultrasound just to be sure and I came away clear from that, went back into her and she told me to take 1 100mg of evening primrose everyday for 6 months, if after 3 months I don’t notice a change then I’ve to take starflower oil aswell, after taking it everyday for 6 months I can either keep taking it daily or I can take it every second day/twice a week.
The evening primrose will disolve/shrink the cysts I have and will prevent any new ones from growing.
I can’t tell you the relief I got, I was finished before 10.30 and home for 11.
A huge huge huge thank you to everyone who wished me well and gave me advice running up to this.
I can’t believe the day I have been both dreading and hoping for to come quicker is one day away.
I haven’t been thinking about or worrying about it as much the last week and a bit as I was in the first few days/week, I eventually listened to the advice that was given to me by everyone, telling me there’s no point in worrying about it as worrying isn’t going to change the outcome one way or another.
I also told my mam last week, and even though I was afraid to in the sense that I didn’t want to worry or upset her, I’m glad I did as she put my mind to rest and has told me not to worry and she’s not going to worry about it until or if there’s something to worry about.
Thanks to everyone who has listened to and given me support on this, it really does mean a lot.
Hopefully by this time tomorrow I’ll be back home and will have the tests/examinations all done and will have a smile on my face, I just hope the waiting time for the results isn’t weeks and weeks.
I wont’ get on to this tomorrow or over the weekend, but I’ll update you on Monday and let you know how I got on.
Thanks again,
Toastie 
Himself can come to the appointment with me on Friday
Anyone who knows our situation knows how much this means to me and what an achievement it is.
Off to tell his nanny after work, as if we did what he wanted to do and just land there on Friday she’d die of a heart attack :-).
Have a good weekend all and thank you all for your support, mine has just started fantastically :-).
When I got home on Friday I had the letter waiting for me with the date for my hospital appointment. I think this is the reason I wasn’t in the mood or frame of mind for the reunion on Friday night.
It’s 9.15am on Friday 19th September in Drogheda, the letter states that if it is my first visit I may need to get more tests done, and to be prepared to be there for up to 2 hours.
I was nervous before but now that the date has been confirmed I’m even more scared and have been hearing ads on the radio for breast cancer support groups and reading in magazines about young women getting breast cancer and being honest I’m scared witless that it’s something serious and not just a cyst or grisle or tissue.
I’ve spent most of the weekend either in tears or on the verge of tears.
I almost have myself convinced that it’s going to be bad news, whereas the other half is thinking postively and telling me it’ll be nothing and no matter what it is we’ll get through it, we are both refusing to think of the opposite way around. In my head if I build myself up to it being bad news and it ends up being nothing I’ll be better off then building myself up to it being nothing and it ending up being something, I’ll end up worse off.
I also haven’t said anything to my family as I don’t want to be worrying them also, when I do the test/s and get the results I’ll tell them then, but I don’t want to be causing them anymore worry in the meantime.
I’m hoping and praying and begging God and my brother and my grandparents that it’s nothing and I just hope that they’re up there listening to me and going to help me out.
I have my schools 10 year reunion this Friday night and am going to go to it.
When I said this to Darragh he couln’t believe I was going, as in his words he ‘can’t think of nothing he’d hate to do more’ and that I’m shockingly brave to be going.
Part of me is nervous and part of me is exited and looking forward to going.
I’m nervous as some of them are married and have children and possibly great careers, whereas I’m not married, have no children and have ‘a job’ not a career.
Do people look forward to attending these or do people have dread at the thought of it?
Have people who have gone to one looked forwarded to or dreaded going to it?
Do you think this is a way of showing off how great your life/their lives are and to look down at others who through your/their eyes aren’t doing as well as you/ they are, or for you is it a way of catching up with old school friends/people?
This: http://www.chevrolet.ie/lacetti-5d/lacetti-5d-index.html, well not exactly this but I want the one I saw and test drove today, it’s a 1.4 ‘06 elite model, which is different to the standard model, it has leather interior, back spoiler, alloys, front skirt and is gorgeous and I WANT IT .
I can get it either on Finance again or with the Credit Union, but when I rang both and priced them both about how much I’d be paying overall the Credit Union ended up about €1,100 cheaper in the long run, so I’m going to see if I can get a loan with them. I need to have between 10 and 20% of the value of the loan in the account as savings, so I will need to ask Mammy and Daddy dearest for a loan of the savings & pay them back that, or else I’ll go to the Finance till I have the savings to get the loan with the Credit Union and pay off the Finance.
I really really really really really really really really want it :-).
The following is what I’m loving and can’t get enough of at the moment: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d_65sBG28Ew.
My musical tastes vary greatly, I love Abba (I’ve seen the movie 3 times so far and am buying it when it’s out on DVD), I love all the old dance songs, I love Duke Special, Shayne Ward, Snow Patrol, some Opera music and many many others. I go from one end of the scale to the other, I wouldn’t define my musical taste as being in one category only, I am open to listening to new and different types of music as I think if you limit yourself to one type of music you could be missing out on some amazing songs and lyrics.
Do you think most people have a wide variation of music or if you tend you like one type of music and that’s it?
What kind of music do you’s like and would you listen to music recommended by others or would you say ‘I don’t like that range/type of music’ and that’s it? Do you limit yourself in your music range or are you open to different types of music/songs?
Do you actually listen to the lyrics in the songs or just the music and sing along without stopping to listen to the actual lyrics you’re singing/hearing?
I am guilty of just singing the words without taking note of them, but have sometimes sat back and really listened to the words on some and been amazed at the words that there are.
I’m not one for checking for lumps and bumps reguarily and religiously, I check sporadically and when I think of it.
A few weeks just under my right arm was sore and sensitive, but I thought nothing of it and ignored it, then last weekend one evening while having a shower I thought I felt a lump and got worried about it, I felt for it again and found it but the next morning couldn’t find it and himself couldn’t find anything and since then I’ve checked and haven’t found anything.
I know that the chances of it being anything is fairly slim, as I know you can have lumpy boobs, especially around the time of the month, but I’ve still got myself in a kind of a worried state as is himself on the chances that it could be something.
I’ve made an appointment for this Friday at 3pm to get checked and to also get a smear test, as I’ve never had either of these tests done, as I’ve always put them on the long finger as I’m both embarrassed and afraid of going in case they find anything, I like to sometimes do the whole giraffe thing and put my head in the sand, if I don’t know about it/ignore it/don’t face up to it, it’s ok and won’t happen, but I’ve given myself such a fright with this that I know I have to go and get this check up done. The receptionist told me it’s €50 for the appointment and €55 for the test, but it’s unlikely that the doctor will charge me for both, she may only charge me for one or the other.
I was very happy when she said it was a lady doctor, as though I’ll be nervous and embarrassed about having my legs up in the air for it I’ll be less embarrassed infront of a woman doctor then I would be in front of a man doctor.
Fingers crossed there is nothing wrong and I’ll come away with a clean bill of health, but I would encourage both women and men to check themselves reguarily for any unusual lumps or bumps and to go to the doctors to get them checked out sooner rather then later.